So life is kind of crappy; I can deal. I can make lemonade from lemons.
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So, picture me, on my way to school this morning. Being the ditz that I am, you can see me at the wheel, "la, la, la, la, la." Okay, maybe not, but you get the point. I'm about to turn onto Riverside, when what do I see go past me? A truck pulling a trailer drives by, and in the back...there's a donkey! I turn onto Riverside, and I am eventually next to it, and it is one of the cutest little things I have ever seen, though it was quite a large donkey. I want a donkey when I get my farm. Yeah, people drive around with donkeys. I'm definitely in Texas.
In other words, I really want to move if I can get my lease changed to month-to-month. Anybody know of any affordable places, as in near $500, preferably less, a month that are furnished? There's this place that seems do-able, but it's on Longview Street and "certain people" may not appreciate my being so close, if I do happen to move.
Finally, my parents had a discussion, without me - of course. I am now not allowed to drive home for winter break. I was planning on getting my car painted, my stupid back windshield wiper fixed, and a set of new tires. However, it has been promised that my parents will rent a car so that we can have the "luxury" of having two cars (I hate being poor, let alone the only poor Jew on earth) while I am home. That means that I will be driving the shiny red, new Jeep, instead of my car, which is 8 years older than their Jeep. However, I fear that, knowing my father, I won't ever be able to do things like go to Boca, Aventura, the beach, or anything if I ever want to, because it puts mileage on the car, and he "can't afford the lease overage." I'm so sick of this shit and everything revolving around money. I want a new family, a new life, where we don't have to worry where our next meal is coming from. Okay, we're not that poor, but I hate that I have to work so hard, and it's always "Ashleigh, lay it out and we'll pay it back." Okay, where's my fucking Bat Mitzvah money? This past Sunday, it was 7 fucking years ago, and I still don't have my fucking measly $5000. "Ashleigh, how come you have so little money in your savings account?" Because you fucking took it all! How many of you have paid the mortgage on your parents' house? That's right, no one. How many of you pay ALL your fucking bills? Maybe a few, but still, I hate this, it sucks. Money and being poor are what kept me in this shithole of a community, so far east, so far away from everything. "Ashleigh, how come you aren't more involved in events on campus?" Well, I fucking live EIGHT miles away from campus, and who the hell wants to come all the way back here, and turn around and go back? Who wants to fight traffic, no matter what time of day it is, no matter in which direction you travel? Even if you stay on campus, you still have HOURS before meetings, and who the fuck wants to spend 13 hours a day on campus. Not fucking me, not fucking me. My mother told me I am staying here until next year, but if I can get out of my lease, even if I have to pay a bit more, and go month-to-month, it's worth it to get out of here. I hate it. I hate it. I relish the drive each and every day. I am so jealous of everyone at Hillel, because THEY all live near campus, and I cannot take it anymore.
Okay, enough raving for now. I need to eat, which I would have done sooner if I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORK TWO DAMN JOBS!