So life is kind of crappy; I can deal. I can make lemonade from lemons.
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Ok, so I understand that many things are they way they are simply because they are meant to be that way. But does life have to be so incredibly oxymoronic, confusing, and hurtful? So, I am friends with this new guy (he knows who he is). Talk about confusing and oxymoronic. Sometimes, I cannot figure him out. On one hand, he will spill his guts to me, telling me everything there ever was to know about him. Yet, he may not even talk to me or he treats me like dirt at other times. That is ok; that is completely normal. At other moments, it seems as if he wants to "jump my bones." It is as if he likes me so much, wants to get to know me incredibly well; flirtatious does not even begin to describe his manner during these precious moments. However, he denies that he wants anything to do with me. I am not exactly hurt by this; it's just the confusion that it brings about. That is all. And, to top it off, I had such a great time with him tonight, as I always do when I work with him. I actually smile, something I do not do all that often. I even laugh when I am around him. All I really need is a friend.
I wonder sometimes. Ok, so I wonder quite often. But there is nothing wrong with that. It is merely that men are so confusing, so oxymoronic. I don't know what to do most of the time. All I know is that I want a definitive answer.